Well, folks… I’ve just been laid off. Precisely in the middle of my training program, we’ve been shut down due to COVID19. The official reason was given as safety reasons, but the reality is that a good portion of the company’s regular staff at it’s 40+ dealerships have also been laid off. The stooges who laid me off suggested that we might be back in 3 weeks. I don’t know if they believed themselves, but I sure as hell don’t believe we’ll be back inside a couple of months.
Just because this is my life, the day after getting my layoff notice, I was contacted by a wonderful lady who was renting out her basement apartment. I went to see the place last weekend, and although it’s not the luxury apartment I was living in 5 years ago, it was pretty fucking great; and just in budget. Just. If I’m lucky enough to get my employment insurance in a timely fashion, and qualify for the maximum amount, I’ll get 55% of my income.
Napkin math goes like this: take home pay is $450 week. Rent would have been $1,000/month, including heat, water and power. The numbers there conveniently work out to show that just my housing cost would be 55% of my income. My entire income from employment insurance would be gone. Forget groceries, transportation, insurance, healthcare… everything.
If you think $1,000/month sounds expensive, it is. The vacancy rate here in Halifax, Canada is less than 1%. By some estimates, affordable housing vacancy rates are close to 0.4%. Depending on where you get your data, the average one bedroom rental in the city is anywhere between $1,100-$1,500.
The cost of rentals in this area is terribly disproportionate to the average incomes. With a minimum wage under $13/hr and a dearth of jobs, Halifax is a hard place to live for the average person. So, a $1,000/month inclusive apartment is probably equivalent to $700/month + utilities. Try finding a place for $600-$700/month in Halifax. Yes, they exist. Can you find one, and would you want to live there?
I’ve been trying for a long time to make “right” and “good” decisions for some time. Yes, for a while it seemed like I had the world by the balls, and I couldn’t put a foot wrong, so maybe it’s just my turn? Losing everything, including control over my own body in the form of addiction, has caused me to look at every decision hyper-critically, in the hopes of climbing out of the hole I’ve dug myself into. I really feel like I’m doing the right things, finally, but getting the wrong results.
It’s nice to have some time to be back here though, so I’ll try to take advantage of it. There’s a few folks that have emailed me over the past several weeks that I want to get back to, and I want to get some more useful content up here for you. I’m hoping that my dark market how-to will be up here in a few days so you can get onto a safer, more reliable way to get your substances. Keep your comments coming, your input and emails keep me motivated to carry on here. Thanks to those who have taken the time to contribute. Let me know how things are going for you out there.